Let’s Blog. Part 2

All the otaku and army stuff aside.
There’s one thing I can never let go. That is illustration.

When I entered DMD, I neglected it thoroughly. It’s close to a GOOD 3 years that I did not do any illustrations at all.
Personally it’s a regret but there’s no point mopping over it.

Lost time is lost time, what I can do is to press on and go back to what I loved and cherish so much.

I restarted at around september last year, gone back to drawing anime again.
Warming up in september…

Something done in October

November

And I went to work till end of Jan 09. Not much of personal works but I think I gained many insights and skills. Especially when it comes to coloring and background.
So one last thing I did before I enlisted

FAST FORWARD TO NOW.
June. I’ve been really drawing anywhere I can, especially at work place. There’s a tablet in front of me. Pen and papers ALL OVER THE PLACE.
And this past 3 weeks I really drilled myself. And I personally saw some progress.

So my latest work

Pretty not very much appreciated still, It’s perhaps just deviantart. I seriously hope to see my works being appreciated more.
But for now all I need to know is I can fly much further.
AND I WILL FLY MUCH FURTHER. (Is that how swine flu came about?!)

That concludes part 2. Part 3? Maybe yes maybe no.

Let’s blog. Part 1

How long has it been….. Almost three months.

So 3 months ago I was underage and now I’m 21.
Shall try to type in proper caps while I remember.

So what have I done in this 3 months that I can actually talk about?

1) Posted under Registry/Visualisation team in a MINDEF department.
Let’s see… There was a huge event right at the moment I came into the dept.
To make things short. It was extremely busy and tiring. MANY overnights. But hey one thing nice was I get to overnight in a 5 star local hotel~
With that, I get 2 days of well deserved off; actually I thought another friend and I deserved more LOL.

2) Living pretty much like an otaku.
Heh… Thought I already did? Well actually yes. Not much change about my lifestyle. I still watch anime a lot. But I started buying moar figurines.
Deadly and extremely poisonous hobby. And yea NPNT. Let’ go through some pics in chronological order.

Tamaki Kousaka Temptation Ver, My 1st scaled figurine. 1/7 in scale. The day I bought her; the feeling was indescribable. Extremely poisonous feeling. 87 bucks.

Saber Figma~ This is a real steal. Got it from someone online for 28 bucks for such a rare and hard to find figurine! Very posable. GREAT STUFF!

Alice; A super cute figurine that I bought on impulse. Without regrets though! $30.

1/5 Yoko from Gift. She really mesmerised me the moment I see it online.
Struggled long and real hard and finally gave in to preordering it. $137

Nagi Nendoroid. The cute girl with blue hair~ (Guest star; Shana Nendo and Kagami Figma)
Forgot to do a proper photoshoot of her. Will do soon. She’s really super cute but very very pricey for such figurines.  54 bucks

Haruhi Gekisou Version. She’s a SERIOUS beauty.
1/8 in scale but the level of details is the highest that I have with me. (Not that I have many figurines but this is like WAH) Got it at 110 bucks.

Conclusion on the figurine conquest:

BROKE

So let’s go through some anime I’ve watched.

Macross Frontier. There’s 2 things I love about this anime. One is the background art; absolutely stunning work. Skies are so beautifully drawn! Certainly one of the best out there.
Next is RANKA LEE! She’s SOOOOOOO CUTE. She just appeals to me DAMN A LOT. Content wise… Most fights are epic, but the story didnt have the oh-I-so-want-to-watch-the-next-episode feel. The last episode was kinda bland with quite a cheesy ending. Ah… One thing I forgot to mention is the splendid OST! May’N is WIN. Diamond Crevasse is made of IMPACT.

Bamboo Blade! Wah… Great stuff. I started watching like for 4 episodes long long time ago and it was in chinese subs. I was lazy so I put on hold UNTIL ALMOST FOREVER.
Recently I dug out my animes and decided that I should watch this since so many people recommended it. This anime will get you hook on slowly. Characters are nicely carved out and the comedy is just LOL at times. I love Tamaki! She is so Moe! ATOMIC FIRE BLADE!

Still watching many ongoing animes but let’s just leave to next time.
Head on to the next part of the entry.

the season

of missing someone?

maybe not missing.
maybe after watching some emotional anime
maybe just relating
maybe just thinking of the past
maybe nothing to do so think too much

time flies.

sure this season will fly by fast too.

clannad

these few days haven been posting anything despite being pretty accessible to the net.

1st of all after having seen u during fusion
there’s always something i remember about u for the past few days.

bla.

anyway i’ve caught up with most of the major animes i’ve been watching namely:

soul eater
skip beat
clannad after story

was really hesitating to watch clannad after story after i finish the 2 animes above it
cos i know it’s gonna be sad from the movie version i’ve seen

let me think… i believe this is the only anime other than grave of fireflies that made me tear.

from ep 18 all the way to ep 22 there are just some scenes that made me tear.
ep 22 especially so

i nvr finish the novel so i dunno how damn sad the novel is
BUT
to me this is very touching
maybe when it comes to romance/family and themes related to death of someone close
i always have a soft spot for them

not to mention this anime has easily one of the highest animation standards for the past animes i’ve seen
very smooth and fluid movements (quite hard to find in animes) and nice actings

it’s amazing how slice of life it is in the 1st season and the 1st half of this season
and suddenly it just evolves into a huge emotional tidal wave

alright i dunno what to say anymore and it’s getting late.

shall talk more soon.

life

is pretty ok

just a few observations i’ve made again

i realised it’s really different from poly
as in the lives of my army friends.

let’s see

back then in poly:
1) i’m a joker cos ppl do laugh some times (esp liesl).
2) i generally prefer company of girls (easier to chat with, guys are usually not very talkative to each other, at least in my case)
3) i’m more of a listener than a speaker in a group. and i prefer to listen than talk
4) cliques are small and i totally enjoy it cos the focus (friends to friends) are not diluted
5) we have ‘boring’ or rather mundane leisure activities like eating good food and watching movie. but that was pretty fine even up till now actually.
6) there were girls. DUH. and i think it’s a very huge part of my life. no not the obscene way.
7) same course, pretty much same topic to talk about. similar interests and visions.

now in army (platoon specifically)
1) quieter as my joke doesnt really seem very fitting for the environment
2) quieter as i still prefer to talk to girls more as they’re easier to talk to
3) i’m still more or less a listener but it just doesnt feel the same. i’m expected to talk as well in some cases.
4) i don’t really count myself in any cliques or wad. not a bad thing but things just feel kinda diluted. only difference is whether i know u better than other platoon mates.
5) more night activities which i’m not really interested in. feels kinda out of place whenever an outing is suggested. oh well.
6) all guys.. mmm been repeated so many times, but i think i communicate with female better than i do with males.
7) same bmt, but mostly JC people. dunno wad to talk about when i’m with them. which explains why i’m quieter.

if you ask me. i’ll still prolly prefer my poly life in anyways.
cant be helped i guess. it may just be unfair to compare since poly is 3 yrs and i’ve only gone thru 1 month of bmt.
yeah btw bmt is over. and i guess that might have been the last time since i feel bonded like i was in red cross.
enjoyed the daring ‘outfit’ i had in OC night and all the cheers and shouting.

it was very fun to feel enthu.

back to ‘normal’ life.
i’m struggling if i should get myself my own psp. why?

pros
1) to watch videos (long batt hours and big screen)
2) portability
3) games (realised there’s quite a few games out there i actually enjoy)
4) all of above = easier to pass time in army when i’m bored.

cons
1) expensive as it’s not a need.
2) expensive cos i feel i’m overspending these days.
3) i’m wondering if this is just a short lived interest, if it is i’m indeed wasting money.
4) easier to pass time in army = less drawings and constructive work done on my part? no?

a few things i should/need to do in this coming months
1) wait for my saber lily and kannagi nendoroid to come
2) improve on my drawings and churn out some decent works
3) meet up with poly friends
4) slim down… mmmm…
5) read books that i’ve bought. they’re good.
6) prepare to get a display shelf for my beloved but small collection of figurines?
7) watch more anime.
celebrate mum’s bday
9) reduce my spendings after all these crazy buys

all right it’s almost 3. time to leave this post.
talk more next time.

2 yrs

just wanna record this feeling mmm..

been almost 2 yrs but i must still say.

i still miss the you i loved.

i still avoid you as i see you.

2 yrs past and many things have pretty much changed.

your hair
your dressing
your blog

your personality? not really sure.

i really miss the girl who always wear a light blue and white jacket with jeans.
shoulder length hair.
always trying to cope with assignments

miss the times in library and macs

oh well. been a freaking long long time since i feel this way.
maybe it’s just cause of seeing you around today.

that’s about it

1 month

this one month feels long yet short.

yes it’s exactly a month since i’ve enlisted.

10 more days to poc. it’s freaking damn fast.
to a large extent i enjoyed it as i made good friends inside.

since i cant talk about what’s going on in my army life. let’s talk about some observations i made

the bad:
1) you cant imagine how NOT toilet trained many people are. shitting out of target, not flushing properly and anyhow throwing used toilet roll. u can even see FOOD in URINALS LOL?
2) some people just cannot listen to simple instructions properly. eg unfold ur card boxes so the rubbish IC (which is me) can throw away easily and efficiently. throwing rubbish in toilet that has no rubbish bin.
3) this is just specific to a bastard who tore of my drawing and almost refused to return to me until his buddy asked him to return me. didnt even apologise. fucked up people.

the good
1) i honestly cant expect people in c9l3 to be enthusiastic about army but i’m definitely wrong. i have some really great platoon mates who really drive our platoon and make it a really fun experience
2) friendship, like duh. well it’s true that the tougher ur times are the stronger friendships are forged. c9l3 cant get really tough as it’s obvious. but well u still do find really nice people around.
3) sergeants. this is just to my platoon’s sergeants. i got really nice sgts and i’m really grateful of that. not to mention my PC too, fantastic encik.

alright generally described wad i felt and observed in tekong

let me type this down b4 i forget.
it’s like been almost 2 yrs. so long ago yet seems so recent.
i had a dream about you. a freaking vivid dream which doesnt really make sense

i dreamt that my mum arranged a wedding (dun ask me how she did that cos it’s a dream) for me and u (LOL?)
when i came to know about this news i was really shock and at a loss of what to do since i know we’re at a huge distance now.
as days draw nearer i begin to feel more and more tensed, somehow hopeful somehow knowing this will go wrong.

in the end it’s obvious that the wedding is gone case.

well nonsensical dream. but it made me realise u still do hold a place somewhere.

but bleh no worries just typing it out for the sake of sharing.
hope you’re good at work and with people. i probably wont need to say this actually LOL

anyhow i’ve watched fate stay night anime. and this is one lovely figurine i’d really wanna get. but seems like preorders in sg’s shop are all closed and sold out. do i really have to resort to asking people to help me buy using credit cards?

Last post

as a civilian.

going in tml with my mum
7 weeks bmt

pes c9l3

alright, army stuff aside
let’s talk a lil about wad i was doing

1) 1.5 months spent in takahan’s studio doing anime drawings and background.
i can totally feel myself improving alot. in terms of workflow, completeness of work
1.5 months ago i dunno how to draw background at all. now i’ve accomplished 10-15 pieces.
all looking pretty nicely done IMO.

watched anime
Higurashi no Naku Koro ni

a mystery-murder story which involve cute little girls killing each other
overall i enjoyed it quite alot

but i must say u must be patient to last thru season 1 as sometimes u seriously just wanna say
wtf is going on?

season 2 reveals anything u wanna know and the actual story opens up.

alright.. and hence i continued watching several ongoing anime like clannad after story, toradora, soul eater

and then, my 2nd sis finally gotten married to her husband after 11 yrs of long running relationship
it’s pretty amazing if u look at the society now. such relationship is rarer than striking lottery i guess.
both’s each other’s 1st love. sweet eh?
i did the wedding montage for them, kinda hurried and rush cos of my work though.
the wedding is a little chaotic, i didnt get to sit with my sis also. sat with a bunch of mum’s china friends.
and i tell you, they attack the food with no reservation so it’s stressful LOL

next, i bought 4 lucky star figurines
posable figurines called figma to be exact
words are useless without pics

cute eh…. of course. they’re my darlings.

alright, i abit dunno wad to say liao.
take care everyone and heypi niu ear

joke?

you know. i really feel like a joke when it comes to this.

it has been…… let’s see…. at the very least 4 years.

let me give u this senario.
you’re with a bunch of friends. i can say they are nice friends
and they make every effort to celebrate each and everyone’s bday with serious effort

except yours.

to me. i haven told anyone from the clique about this but i feel damn smljwtf about it.
i’m expected to chip in for the bday etc etc etc.
but no one remembers my bday. honestly i dun even need a celebration. not even a greeting?
and i’m expected to chip in in their birthdays?

i dunno, am i selfish? am i petty or is there really something wrong?

and dont.
dont say it’s cause i dun appear much or wads not.
in the first place no one really does care about my bday

so now i feel like i’m a filler to let the presents be cheaper or sorts.
call me a selfish bastard i dun care.
call me an attention seeker who failed to even get any bday greetings.

but i’m pissed and trying to act like i dun feel anything about it.

to my dear friends who remember my bday and even celebrate with me (including ah hock ok)
a huge thanks to you guys.

i just wanna say, i’m not wanting or begging for a celebration or a greeting from them. even if they come now they dun mean anything like hell.
i just felt unfair, for years and i think i should blog it out b4 i explode.

anyhow, entering army in exactly 1 month’s time

mmmm

new blogging interface huh

alright that apart.

i’m just kinda tempted to say that the main girl in skip beat
constantly reminds me of u as i watch the anime

it’s been really long since then anyway

now it feels like the aftertaste of…….. i dunno wad food i can use to describe

nothing bad or good.

just that i dunno why lately

maybe almost every night when i settle on my bed to slp

ur name, just ur name alone and nothing else will appear in my mind

anyhow i watched ip man with stanley and zs

GOOD STUFF. holy fighting scenes and donnie yen really brings out the character nicely.

MUS T WATCH

note that ipman has nothing to do with james lye or vr man

pronounce ip man as eep mun, cantonese