you know. i really feel like a joke when it comes to this.

it has been…… let’s see…. at the very least 4 years.

let me give u this senario.
you’re with a bunch of friends. i can say they are nice friends
and they make every effort to celebrate each and everyone’s bday with serious effort

except yours.

to me. i haven told anyone from the clique about this but i feel damn smljwtf about it.
i’m expected to chip in for the bday etc etc etc.
but no one remembers my bday. honestly i dun even need a celebration. not even a greeting?
and i’m expected to chip in in their birthdays?

i dunno, am i selfish? am i petty or is there really something wrong?

and dont.
dont say it’s cause i dun appear much or wads not.
in the first place no one really does care about my bday

so now i feel like i’m a filler to let the presents be cheaper or sorts.
call me a selfish bastard i dun care.
call me an attention seeker who failed to even get any bday greetings.

but i’m pissed and trying to act like i dun feel anything about it.

to my dear friends who remember my bday and even celebrate with me (including ah hock ok)
a huge thanks to you guys.

i just wanna say, i’m not wanting or begging for a celebration or a greeting from them. even if they come now they dun mean anything like hell.
i just felt unfair, for years and i think i should blog it out b4 i explode.

anyhow, entering army in exactly 1 month’s time