the season

of missing someone?

maybe not missing.
maybe after watching some emotional anime
maybe just relating
maybe just thinking of the past
maybe nothing to do so think too much

time flies.

sure this season will fly by fast too.

clannad

these few days haven been posting anything despite being pretty accessible to the net.

1st of all after having seen u during fusion
there’s always something i remember about u for the past few days.

bla.

anyway i’ve caught up with most of the major animes i’ve been watching namely:

soul eater
skip beat
clannad after story

was really hesitating to watch clannad after story after i finish the 2 animes above it
cos i know it’s gonna be sad from the movie version i’ve seen

let me think… i believe this is the only anime other than grave of fireflies that made me tear.

from ep 18 all the way to ep 22 there are just some scenes that made me tear.
ep 22 especially so

i nvr finish the novel so i dunno how damn sad the novel is
BUT
to me this is very touching
maybe when it comes to romance/family and themes related to death of someone close
i always have a soft spot for them

not to mention this anime has easily one of the highest animation standards for the past animes i’ve seen
very smooth and fluid movements (quite hard to find in animes) and nice actings

it’s amazing how slice of life it is in the 1st season and the 1st half of this season
and suddenly it just evolves into a huge emotional tidal wave

alright i dunno what to say anymore and it’s getting late.

shall talk more soon.

life

is pretty ok

just a few observations i’ve made again

i realised it’s really different from poly
as in the lives of my army friends.

let’s see

back then in poly:
1) i’m a joker cos ppl do laugh some times (esp liesl).
2) i generally prefer company of girls (easier to chat with, guys are usually not very talkative to each other, at least in my case)
3) i’m more of a listener than a speaker in a group. and i prefer to listen than talk
4) cliques are small and i totally enjoy it cos the focus (friends to friends) are not diluted
5) we have ‘boring’ or rather mundane leisure activities like eating good food and watching movie. but that was pretty fine even up till now actually.
6) there were girls. DUH. and i think it’s a very huge part of my life. no not the obscene way.
7) same course, pretty much same topic to talk about. similar interests and visions.

now in army (platoon specifically)
1) quieter as my joke doesnt really seem very fitting for the environment
2) quieter as i still prefer to talk to girls more as they’re easier to talk to
3) i’m still more or less a listener but it just doesnt feel the same. i’m expected to talk as well in some cases.
4) i don’t really count myself in any cliques or wad. not a bad thing but things just feel kinda diluted. only difference is whether i know u better than other platoon mates.
5) more night activities which i’m not really interested in. feels kinda out of place whenever an outing is suggested. oh well.
6) all guys.. mmm been repeated so many times, but i think i communicate with female better than i do with males.
7) same bmt, but mostly JC people. dunno wad to talk about when i’m with them. which explains why i’m quieter.

if you ask me. i’ll still prolly prefer my poly life in anyways.
cant be helped i guess. it may just be unfair to compare since poly is 3 yrs and i’ve only gone thru 1 month of bmt.
yeah btw bmt is over. and i guess that might have been the last time since i feel bonded like i was in red cross.
enjoyed the daring ‘outfit’ i had in OC night and all the cheers and shouting.

it was very fun to feel enthu.

back to ‘normal’ life.
i’m struggling if i should get myself my own psp. why?

pros
1) to watch videos (long batt hours and big screen)
2) portability
3) games (realised there’s quite a few games out there i actually enjoy)
4) all of above = easier to pass time in army when i’m bored.

cons
1) expensive as it’s not a need.
2) expensive cos i feel i’m overspending these days.
3) i’m wondering if this is just a short lived interest, if it is i’m indeed wasting money.
4) easier to pass time in army = less drawings and constructive work done on my part? no?

a few things i should/need to do in this coming months
1) wait for my saber lily and kannagi nendoroid to come
2) improve on my drawings and churn out some decent works
3) meet up with poly friends
4) slim down… mmmm…
5) read books that i’ve bought. they’re good.
6) prepare to get a display shelf for my beloved but small collection of figurines?
7) watch more anime.
celebrate mum’s bday
9) reduce my spendings after all these crazy buys

all right it’s almost 3. time to leave this post.
talk more next time.

2 yrs

just wanna record this feeling mmm..

been almost 2 yrs but i must still say.

i still miss the you i loved.

i still avoid you as i see you.

2 yrs past and many things have pretty much changed.

your hair
your dressing
your blog

your personality? not really sure.

i really miss the girl who always wear a light blue and white jacket with jeans.
shoulder length hair.
always trying to cope with assignments

miss the times in library and macs

oh well. been a freaking long long time since i feel this way.
maybe it’s just cause of seeing you around today.

that’s about it