Commission

For someone in a forum!

Base on a photo. Something new for me. Not as easy as I’d thought actually.

Black Rock Shooter

Bandwagon time.

2 Versions!

MIA

I’m just getting lazy to blog.

In any case, I shall start writing my blog in…
Proper caps.

I can’t resist but to post this piece of work I just did.
Referenced from..
Um….

That’s it for today.

Let’s Blog. Part 2

All the otaku and army stuff aside.
There’s one thing I can never let go. That is illustration.

When I entered DMD, I neglected it thoroughly. It’s close to a GOOD 3 years that I did not do any illustrations at all.
Personally it’s a regret but there’s no point mopping over it.

Lost time is lost time, what I can do is to press on and go back to what I loved and cherish so much.

I restarted at around september last year, gone back to drawing anime again.
Warming up in september…

Something done in October

November

And I went to work till end of Jan 09. Not much of personal works but I think I gained many insights and skills. Especially when it comes to coloring and background.
So one last thing I did before I enlisted

FAST FORWARD TO NOW.
June. I’ve been really drawing anywhere I can, especially at work place. There’s a tablet in front of me. Pen and papers ALL OVER THE PLACE.
And this past 3 weeks I really drilled myself. And I personally saw some progress.

So my latest work

Pretty not very much appreciated still, It’s perhaps just deviantart. I seriously hope to see my works being appreciated more.
But for now all I need to know is I can fly much further.
AND I WILL FLY MUCH FURTHER. (Is that how swine flu came about?!)

That concludes part 2. Part 3? Maybe yes maybe no.

Last post

as a civilian.

going in tml with my mum
7 weeks bmt

pes c9l3

alright, army stuff aside
let’s talk a lil about wad i was doing

1) 1.5 months spent in takahan’s studio doing anime drawings and background.
i can totally feel myself improving alot. in terms of workflow, completeness of work
1.5 months ago i dunno how to draw background at all. now i’ve accomplished 10-15 pieces.
all looking pretty nicely done IMO.

watched anime
Higurashi no Naku Koro ni

a mystery-murder story which involve cute little girls killing each other
overall i enjoyed it quite alot

but i must say u must be patient to last thru season 1 as sometimes u seriously just wanna say
wtf is going on?

season 2 reveals anything u wanna know and the actual story opens up.

alright.. and hence i continued watching several ongoing anime like clannad after story, toradora, soul eater

and then, my 2nd sis finally gotten married to her husband after 11 yrs of long running relationship
it’s pretty amazing if u look at the society now. such relationship is rarer than striking lottery i guess.
both’s each other’s 1st love. sweet eh?
i did the wedding montage for them, kinda hurried and rush cos of my work though.
the wedding is a little chaotic, i didnt get to sit with my sis also. sat with a bunch of mum’s china friends.
and i tell you, they attack the food with no reservation so it’s stressful LOL

next, i bought 4 lucky star figurines
posable figurines called figma to be exact
words are useless without pics

cute eh…. of course. they’re my darlings.

alright, i abit dunno wad to say liao.
take care everyone and heypi niu ear

brother.

it’s been a mentally taxing month.

literally.

tension between my sis and i is really getting to me.
but i’m glad i didnt do anything stupid like resort to violence, which i almost wanted to
i controlled myself.

dun really feel like typing down what happened

just tired.
and disappointed.

i just wanna say, i dun think i’m a bad brother.
nor am i a bad family member.

all i want is peace and the sense of belonging.

they have to be taken away, and now taken away by my dear sister.

ironic.

let’s hope things will become better.
let’s hope i can find a good way to settle this.

enough on negative stuff.

i’ve gone back to drawing for about 1.5 months.
i can see the difference. the improvement.

and encouragement. from?
artists’ works.

some artists i admire, and i look at their old works. it goes to show.
alot of times it’s not just about talent. it’s just hardwork and hardwork.

and so i’ve been dilligently trying to learn and absorb back wad i need do.
perspective drawing, tonal values, illustration, lineart, coloring

everything.

and why i started drawing? because wad inspired me to draw from the start has inspired me again.
anime.

alright.
i’m getting damn sleepy which is a good thing.
i’m sleeping earlier and earlier as i observe.

goodnight.

on the surface

nothing much has happened.

but these 2 wks i learnt about my struggles.

i’ve been really trying hard to get ppl to appreciate my work on deviantart but most of what i get is plain disappointment.

just then someone i knew from sganime forum started posting his artworks in edmw
and i thought oh well i should just sexpose myself and get more exposure.

and so i started posting.
to be honest it’s been really some time since i felt this appreciated.

it’s generally a talk cock forum but i felt very encouraged in that thread.
sounds very drama mama huh.

that aside. i was talking about myself and struggles i like do now in the thread.
about people not appreciating my work, just pure scrutinising
about how little attention i get.

so someone in the forum asked:
what is art? .. . do u see through the eyes of others or for others to see through ur eyes … which do u concern more?

my english abit weak so i asked for more elaboration and she said:

1. see through ur own eyes .. . u unleash the inner soul tat speaks noh and ur imagination and perception of forms, styles or even colours fly like a soaring eagle tat no know limit …

2. see through other’s eyes .. . u worry in every strokes or application what other’s might say and not like to see … u propitiate or favour or suit people.. . so tat soul is cloistered forever

the moment she explained it, i saw something coming back to me.
remember the dog-chasing-happiness story on one of the more recent post?

i didnt realise i was just as trapped, just that it’s in another situation.
so stuck that i didnt realise.

the more drawings i did, the more unappreciated and unhappy i felt.

it’s seriously unexpected that i’ll get such advice in such a talk cock sing song forum but it really did help.

i can see things better now.

all i know is. style i dun have now. attitude is not clear now. vision is not sharp now.
i’ll take time, effort to go thru things. and most importantly enjoy what i do.

and so i’m moving on.

which brings me back to the fact that i should start more anatomy practices,
at least enough for me to draw ecchi poses properly XD

i have more things to blog about since it’s around a wk that i actually blog properly.

things like anime blablablablablablabla.
soon. it’s 6 21 AM now btw.

gone

complex.

means very simple puzzles linked together.

just have to solve them 1 by 1…

ooo shana ish so hot~

day by day

i’m ranting and can be pretty offensive if you’re doing it.

i’m talking about art vs marketable so-called-art-designs

1) you practise and practise everyday. you improve and improve and improve. guess what? you become someone who manufactures ‘good’ so-called-art-designs!

2) with noticeable hey-this-style-looks-familiar-styles, you produce so-called-art-designs day by day. being proud to be an ARTist because you can produce beautify so-called-art-designs.

3) of course, you’re not fine with the way it is. u need to make ur so-called-art-designs more marketable by improving! and you become a better ‘artist’ with marketable value!

i’m not pinpointing anyone. just in general a rant.

it’s sad to see things like this. i used to have an artist i like alot, but lately she has ‘fallen’ into what i was talking about earlier. no more watercolor works. more and more warcraft fanart. painted and nicely rendered. it pricks me to see such.

i’m sorry but to say art holds a very special meaning to me. drawing something is not art. it’s personal. really. blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

enough of looking at myrants. go practise more naoz.

colors

is seriously a very amazing subject. color itself is a style

it’s an expression. emotion. temperature. atmosphere.

i need to learn it well. really lacking alot in color.

i must learn more about colors RAWRRRRRRRRR