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Let’s Blog. Part 2

All the otaku and army stuff aside.
There’s one thing I can never let go. That is illustration.

When I entered DMD, I neglected it thoroughly. It’s close to a GOOD 3 years that I did not do any illustrations at all.
Personally it’s a regret but there’s no point mopping over it.

Lost time is lost time, what I can do is to press on and go back to what I loved and cherish so much.

I restarted at around september last year, gone back to drawing anime again.
Warming up in september…

Something done in October

November

And I went to work till end of Jan 09. Not much of personal works but I think I gained many insights and skills. Especially when it comes to coloring and background.
So one last thing I did before I enlisted

FAST FORWARD TO NOW.
June. I’ve been really drawing anywhere I can, especially at work place. There’s a tablet in front of me. Pen and papers ALL OVER THE PLACE.
And this past 3 weeks I really drilled myself. And I personally saw some progress.

So my latest work

Pretty not very much appreciated still, It’s perhaps just deviantart. I seriously hope to see my works being appreciated more.
But for now all I need to know is I can fly much further.
AND I WILL FLY MUCH FURTHER. (Is that how swine flu came about?!)

That concludes part 2. Part 3? Maybe yes maybe no.

Last post

as a civilian.

going in tml with my mum
7 weeks bmt

pes c9l3

alright, army stuff aside
let’s talk a lil about wad i was doing

1) 1.5 months spent in takahan’s studio doing anime drawings and background.
i can totally feel myself improving alot. in terms of workflow, completeness of work
1.5 months ago i dunno how to draw background at all. now i’ve accomplished 10-15 pieces.
all looking pretty nicely done IMO.

watched anime
Higurashi no Naku Koro ni

a mystery-murder story which involve cute little girls killing each other
overall i enjoyed it quite alot

but i must say u must be patient to last thru season 1 as sometimes u seriously just wanna say
wtf is going on?

season 2 reveals anything u wanna know and the actual story opens up.

alright.. and hence i continued watching several ongoing anime like clannad after story, toradora, soul eater

and then, my 2nd sis finally gotten married to her husband after 11 yrs of long running relationship
it’s pretty amazing if u look at the society now. such relationship is rarer than striking lottery i guess.
both’s each other’s 1st love. sweet eh?
i did the wedding montage for them, kinda hurried and rush cos of my work though.
the wedding is a little chaotic, i didnt get to sit with my sis also. sat with a bunch of mum’s china friends.
and i tell you, they attack the food with no reservation so it’s stressful LOL

next, i bought 4 lucky star figurines
posable figurines called figma to be exact
words are useless without pics

cute eh…. of course. they’re my darlings.

alright, i abit dunno wad to say liao.
take care everyone and heypi niu ear

on the surface

nothing much has happened.

but these 2 wks i learnt about my struggles.

i’ve been really trying hard to get ppl to appreciate my work on deviantart but most of what i get is plain disappointment.

just then someone i knew from sganime forum started posting his artworks in edmw
and i thought oh well i should just sexpose myself and get more exposure.

and so i started posting.
to be honest it’s been really some time since i felt this appreciated.

it’s generally a talk cock forum but i felt very encouraged in that thread.
sounds very drama mama huh.

that aside. i was talking about myself and struggles i like do now in the thread.
about people not appreciating my work, just pure scrutinising
about how little attention i get.

so someone in the forum asked:
what is art? .. . do u see through the eyes of others or for others to see through ur eyes … which do u concern more?

my english abit weak so i asked for more elaboration and she said:

1. see through ur own eyes .. . u unleash the inner soul tat speaks noh and ur imagination and perception of forms, styles or even colours fly like a soaring eagle tat no know limit …

2. see through other’s eyes .. . u worry in every strokes or application what other’s might say and not like to see … u propitiate or favour or suit people.. . so tat soul is cloistered forever

the moment she explained it, i saw something coming back to me.
remember the dog-chasing-happiness story on one of the more recent post?

i didnt realise i was just as trapped, just that it’s in another situation.
so stuck that i didnt realise.

the more drawings i did, the more unappreciated and unhappy i felt.

it’s seriously unexpected that i’ll get such advice in such a talk cock sing song forum but it really did help.

i can see things better now.

all i know is. style i dun have now. attitude is not clear now. vision is not sharp now.
i’ll take time, effort to go thru things. and most importantly enjoy what i do.

and so i’m moving on.

which brings me back to the fact that i should start more anatomy practices,
at least enough for me to draw ecchi poses properly XD

i have more things to blog about since it’s around a wk that i actually blog properly.

things like anime blablablablablablabla.
soon. it’s 6 21 AM now btw.

gone

chasing happiness.

let me start with a short story.

there was this very frustrated and angry dog.
he tried and tried to chase his tail.
he started running and running but he ended up running in circles.

it was tiring and frustrating. he can nvr seem to catch up to what he want.
one fine day, he finally decided to move on.

it was then he realised that the tail has been actually following quietly behind him all the while.
many times, it’s the same case as happiness we’re pursuing.
we keep chasing and chasing after it in circles. not looking anywhere else except your objective.
getting obsessed with it, overlooking other things in life.
sinking into depression when u just cant reach what you want.

everyone has such experience. i too have it. i try so hard to chase something that anything around me doesnt seem important at all. nothing seems to matter. nothing seems to shine. just take… drawing for example. i’ve been wanting to do perfect work, perfect drawing. perfect anatomy lighting whatsnot.

in the end i get so irritated and frustrated cos i just cant do it. i’m too focused with the word ‘perfect’ or ‘good’ that i actually know how to enjoy what i was doing. from time to time i still do forget about it.

so recently i’ve been collecting images. i look thru them. particularly an artist called Noizi Ito. i really love her drawings. but when i started to collect them as a whole. i saw pretty noobish/amateurish drawings.
from like… 2002-2005. but now her drawing is so mesmerising. it was then i realised i should just let go of the stubbornness in me wanting to create something perfect or good and just draw.

starting it didnt go well of course. but as i draw, more things picked up along the way. i still dun feel like wow but i think my mindset is positive and with that i can progress.

i think it applies to many things in life. it sounds cliched but it always works. it’s all in the state of mind.
it’s less about what you do but how u do. you can try so hard that u faint. or u can work a little and little with positive attitude. success feeds on failure. i cant call myself successful at all but i feed on failure many many times. with each ‘failure’ i learn to appreciate my own efforts more.

 

all i really want to say is. there’ll be definitely no progress if u run about in circles. how about stopping for a moment and start walking forward. it’s not how much action you take, but rather what action you take.

BE POSITIVE CMON

complex.

means very simple puzzles linked together.

just have to solve them 1 by 1…

ooo shana ish so hot~

update

1) thanks for all the good wishes by friends for medical check up. results shows i’m fine. just perhaps inflammation on the kidney. i still have to be careful though.

2) i still haven get my pes status which is like wtfbbqomgzzzzzzzz. i got a bad feeling that i’ll be only enlisted by next yr.

3) soul eater rocks! very funny yet nice shounen anime! good animation good humor good fighting interesting plot. i love maka! highly recommended.

4) i’ve completed claire’s fanart! been wondering if i should like post in her official forum now or wait till she comes to sg again (which is like god knows when) there isnt a day which i dun listen to her songs~~~ claire rocks!

5) oh yes! lis. didnt u say u wanna learn this song but no translation?
HERE IT IS! from this forum beware of the wall of lyrics though… i’m sure u’ll realised the english feels forced as it pretty much translates from the original lyrics closely. take note that structures of chinese and english are greatly different

你的香气 – 郭静
Ni De Xiang Qi – Claire Guo Jing

玫瑰凋谢的一瞬间留下的香气
mei gui diao xie de yi shun jian liu xia de xiang qi
The fragrance left behind at the instant of the wilting rose,
让我不解追索从前打开记忆的图片
rang wo bu jie zhui suo cong qian da kai ji yi de tu pian
Made me chase uncomprehendingly after the image of recalling a previous memory.
花开的季节背叛曾经上演
hua kai de ji jie bei pan ceng jing shang yan
During the flowering season, betrayal once played out.
直到这刻才发现 我已经真的真的走远
zhi dao zhe ke cai fa xian wo yi jing zhen de zhen de zou yuan
Only till this instant do I discover that I’ve really, really travelled far.
这属于你的香气 我已不再挂念
zhe shu yu ni de xiang qi wo yi bu zai gua nian
This scent of yours, I miss it no more.

曾经爱过可惜已经找不到线索
ceng jing ai guo ke xi yi jing zhao bu dao xian suo
Having once loved before, it is a pity that I couldn’t find a clue.
某年某月就算再让我与你擦身而过
mou nian mou yue jiu suan zai rang wo yu ni ca shen er guo
In a certain year in a certain month, even if we brush past each other,
我已不是我你触碰不了我的心中
wo yi bu shi wo ni chu peng bu le wo de xin zhong
I’m no longer who I was, and you cannot touch my heart,
那最深的角落
na zui shen de jiao luo
The deepest corner of it.

曾经的痛我已经让它孤单坠落 时间慢慢流过
ceng jing de tong wo yi jing rang ta gu dan zhui luo shi jian man man liu guo
The previous pain has been left to fall in loneliness, and time passes slowly.
让我们选择好好的过执著着什么
rang wo men xuan ze hao hao de guo zhi zhu zhe shen mo
So let us choose with due deliberation, what it is that we hold dear.
你的香气已弥漫风中
ni de xiang qi yi mi man feng zhong
Your fragrance has dissipated with the wind.
而我有云淡风晴的天
er wo you yun dan feng qing de tian
While I have a clear, breezy, sunny day.

6) trivial: this entry so far has the most amount of categories involved. and so that concludes my updates.

happy things

hohoho. happy things

1st of, my test print portfolio.

how? professional looking? i’m personally very happy with the result except for the lopsided covers. the alpha and omega should be centralised but ok i think that’s my fault so yea. other than that i think the printing looks great. i shall just keep this copy and do another copy to correct the cover!

okay next.
i think my digestive system have significantly improved this 2 wks. i’ve been chewing my food thoroughly before swallowing them, i still drink alot of water but i dun down 1 litre at one go. so i think that helps as well! ate more veggies and less meat. feeling good!

what else am i supposed to say? uhhhhhhhh i’m just feeling happy! =D

Design hell.

http://www.happeepill.com/home/designhell/dhell.htm
http://www.happeepill.com/home/designhell2/dhell2.htm

nuff said?

E is for. wait wait

energy la. but yea. this isnt counted as the series of title isnt it LOL

ok. i think i’ve found back my own energy, the energy that belongs to me. in the process of harnessing it. it’s a unique energy that you know you possess it and it’s rightfully yours. something that is not given by anyone but you.

you dont feel weird about it and you accept it as it is.

but certainly it’s a must to get inspired

http://www.conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=870

recently gotten really quite interested in sculpturing. let’s see. after this kebab project i’ll try to do personal sculptures whee

ok 2 44am. tired. slp